My life only began when You called my name.

Lead me to Your heart.
This warrior is a child.
Inside the armour hides plenty of things.

For now, let me put all aside and study.
Just a little while more.

11:55 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

it seemed like it all boiled down to this.
again.
once again,
and not for the last time.

she desperately sought for the peace that evaded her.
perhaps things were just now done correctly,
and still she tried.
so hard.
what a play of words, it seems.

Pooh tried to be a black rain cloud and made her laugh.
it brought her to somewhere she could escape from her thoughts and ill-feelings for awhile.
escapism. it seems such a bliss,
even for a brief moment.

it was harder to face them,
and so much easier to run away.
and sometimes, it's just so confusing to do either.
she typed a message in her phone, and never dared to send it out.
not knowing what the consequence would be.
or how silly she would seem to be.

what yearnings and longings, dreams perhaps. or nightmares.
lay them all at His feet.


we both lit the match and burned the bridge.

2:59 AM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

so much that's in my head.
i wish i could burst, and cease to exist.

but i don't think i can.
gabriel bought a tube of bubble-blowing solution. and i just wished for a moment i could be taken to that place free of worries, and just play and laugh without a care. the memories of childhood. and sweet innocence at that.

the beauty of the bubble.
how it contains the myriad of colours, and yet, it's so fragile that it bursts upon the slightest touch of the skin.
so beautiful, and yet you can't hold it in your hands.
makes us all the more marvel and gaze in wonder at it.

and my heart caves in.
at what i have to do.
or not do.
at such a loss, and i don't know who to talk to.
and i don't know what else to say.
i think i've an issue with that.
do i address it.

really think there's something wrong with me?

Lord, who else can i turn to but You?
i'm really sick of it.
tired of struggling with the same old issue.
and there's more to come.

oh for grace to trust Him more.

and i need You to carry me through these right now.
it just might prove too much for me to handle.
but You never let me go through what i can't bear,
for Your grace is more than enough for me.
what on earth am i even thinking.


i see november as a very tough month ahead.
sighs.

lift your eyes, redemption draws near.

turn your eyes upon Jesus.

12:14 AM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

shout it out (:

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all the brothers and sisters

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of old.

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credits.

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wonderful people

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